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(no subject) [Oct. 11th, 2005|08:59 pm]
Jennifer Anne
So I havent posted in forever and someone asked my why, and its because i've moved to myspace.

heres my link: http://www.myspace.com/13567020

it's still under a bit of work, havent quite figured everything out.
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(no subject) [Sep. 19th, 2005|02:06 am]
Jennifer Anne
[Current Mood |hornyhorny]
[Current Music |Reba-Somebody]

I really hate myself. I've become exactly the person that I never wanted to be, and swore that I wouldnt. I need to change it, and now before it gets any worse.

Not much here is all that different. Classes are ok. Nothing to great. I got a C+ on my math test because I didnt show all the work, stupid ass of a teacher. Half of my answers had like a point taken off for "no complete work". It's like middle school all over again. fsdlkfjsad;lfjsdlk;fja;lsdjflasjdf;. Thats all I have to say about that.

I'm so bored and frustrated. It's 2:29 and I'm totaly not tired and I'm bored out of my mind. I think I might go outside and smoke, but then again idk if I want to go out there, it's fuckin cold.


Blllaaaaaaaaaahhh. I'M SO FUCKIN BORED! Well I think I might go do some work. Ah... maybe I wont. lol.

Nity Nity.
Later Days.
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(no subject) [Sep. 13th, 2005|11:54 am]
Jennifer Anne
[Current Mood |crappycrappy]

Amanda I'm so so so so sooooooo sorry for what happend. I love you with all my heart and I hope that you're okay. Be strong and take care of yourself. if not for you then for me. i cant wait to come home for homecomeing weekend to give you your ring and to hang out at the game with everyone! It's gonna be a blast.


Things here at Coby arent much different. Classes have gotten a bit more work-ful. Even though I studied I bombed my Govt quiz. I passed my Expressive arts quiz with a c+, and I think I did really well on my math test but I dont get that back till tomorrow.

Aaron is done with. Doesnt like me and honestly after the way he acted when Kerry was here I wasnt to sure I liked him. I deserve better. Someone who doesnt play mind games and send tons of mixed signals.

Well I've gota go and get some work done before classes.
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"poke me in the eye and stab me in the heart..." [Sep. 7th, 2005|02:00 am]
Jennifer Anne

I try and I try yet all I get is nothing. The only thing that I wish for will never be mine.

 

WHATDOYOUWANTFROMME?WHATDOIHAVETOSAY?WHATTOIHAVETOGIVE?

 

Everything in life is fine. Some things great for that matter. But these few things just keep eating at me. There eating at me because I know I'll never have them, or I'll never live up to them.

 

Other than the few things that are bothering me things are good. I'm ok. School is ok. Life is ok I guess.

 

I did well on last weeks math quiz, i had a quiz in expressive arts monday, i have a test in govt on thursday, and a test in math on friday. And I just finished the final of an essay for english, I think I did well on it, guess we'll find out next week.

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(no subject) [Sep. 5th, 2005|08:14 pm]
Jennifer Anne
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(no subject) [Sep. 5th, 2005|06:55 pm]
Jennifer Anne
[Current Mood |hornyhorny]

i've come the the conclusing that this place is verry boring.
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More Than Words [Aug. 31st, 2005|12:18 pm]
Jennifer Anne
[Current Mood |awakeawake]
[Current Music |Journey]

So these last few days have been, well bad. But I woke up today and thought maybe it'll be a better day. The weathers nice and I'm sick of feeling like shit.


No I'm not in a bad mood because of a guy, it's just life thats changing so much right now.


Kelly I'm sorry for being a bitch, and Britt and Chels, thanks for taking care of me.


Aaron keeps apologising. I dont want to hear it. If people were really sorry it wouldnt have happened in the first place. Im over it. You cant change the past so you just have to let it go. He's not intrested and thats that. I have to learn to deal. It's just another part of life and growing up.


I went home lastnight. Ben and I went to WalMart and then decided we didnt want to go back to campus and so we ended at my house. Denise is pissed. She didnt like it at all. I've gotten like 3 phone calls from her. She's flipping out. She stopped by Amandas this morning and asked her what was wrong with me, why I didnt act like "myself", which was funny because I was really happy then. She said my eyes looked funny and that Ben looked like a party person. Which again is funny beause I hadent been doing anything and Ben was dressed very hickish, boots, hat and all. Go figure. So anyway she's comeing up here sometime today. News flash to me. Makes me feel great that she feels she cant trust me. But then again I guess thats her problem and not mine. My job is to be here and do the best that I can. And to say fuck you to everyone that said I couldnt do it.
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(no subject) [Aug. 29th, 2005|12:54 pm]
Jennifer Anne
blah. i just read my past few entries. i sound like such a bitchy little girl.

im done ranting about my love life now. or lack there of.
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why [Aug. 29th, 2005|12:04 pm]
Jennifer Anne
[Current Mood |disappointeddisappointed]
[Current Music |the streets]

lastnight when i thought things were getting a bit better then yet again crashed before my eyes.


i give up on this shit. this place. these guys. everything


it's like anything i do i cant please anyone, not even myself any more.


i've never been left like that. i had no idea of what to do with myself. for the first time in my life i wanted to run after someone.


i just wish there were someone to tell me what to do.





it seems like i have my pick of guys for sex around here but when it comes to the one person who i actually have feelings for it doesnt work.



i just spent the last hour outside talking to jeremy from parsons. it kinda helped. to know someone else is in the same 'boat' persay. its just nice to know that your not the only one.


why with me is it the guys that i dont have feelings for i'll fuck without hesitation but then when it comes to the guys that i have feeling for i cant get myself to do anything with. why do i care. why do i bother. why do i set myself up for hurt time and time again when i know how it's going to end. just like everything else in my life. pain.


its back to the heartless cold emotionless empty cell of life.


i give up.
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(no subject) [Aug. 29th, 2005|12:34 am]
Jennifer Anne
[Current Mood |lonelylonely]

i hate this whole walls down uncontrolable emotions shit. i have no control and no clue whats going on. i want to leave this place and everything to do with it because its all fucking with my head. Those walls need to go back up. And they need to stay. Forever. I hate fuckin emotions. They make me feel so weak. So vunerable. So open. I dont want to like anyone. I dont want to let anyone in. I dont want to be hurt yet again. Im not strong enough. I cant deal with it again. I just cant do it.
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